I want to create this page because I suffer to some degree from symptoms of PTSD. I was sexually abused and lost my virginity by force by a self-serving guy in college.
It, safe to say changed my life. For a while for the better, but then for the worst. It was like I lost my mind. And slowly spiraled into a fear of being lost in my head. Hiding out of fear, or confusion of the event. It was really hard for me to wrap my head around the event and what happened. Mainly because I was unconscious for most of it, I lost my consciousness when I realized I couldn't move my self to prevent from happening what was happening. It was like I was drugged sedated and in a deep state of paralysis. In some ways I feel like I was still sleeping, like my brain was still sleeping, and some part of me woke up, but I wasn't completely awake. Its bizarre but it is a possibility, because I was sleeping when this person decided to take advantage of the situation. I was drunk sleeping.
It, safe to say changed my life. For a while for the better, but then for the worst. It was like I lost my mind. And slowly spiraled into a fear of being lost in my head. Hiding out of fear, or confusion of the event. It was really hard for me to wrap my head around the event and what happened. Mainly because I was unconscious for most of it, I lost my consciousness when I realized I couldn't move my self to prevent from happening what was happening. It was like I was drugged sedated and in a deep state of paralysis. In some ways I feel like I was still sleeping, like my brain was still sleeping, and some part of me woke up, but I wasn't completely awake. Its bizarre but it is a possibility, because I was sleeping when this person decided to take advantage of the situation. I was drunk sleeping.
